Meadow Sweet

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

im boreddddd.
goddamn, today woke up specially to watch happy sunday.
the stupid channelU website put 2.30pm but it started at 3.
what worse was the show sucked.
no xiaozhu inside so not that funny.
but nvm lahs, since someone was so kind to wake me up at 2.15
hai me less sleep 45 minutes. its my repay time now! on the phone with him now and he shall not sleep either!

actually meeting friend tmr but its postponed to sat.

now my life is so up and down.
day and night are opposite to me,
be it whenever i wake up, my first meal is always dinner at evening which can considered as my breakfast. later on at night, will eat something as my lunch.
at around 5am, then my dinner.
few hours later, went to sleep.
other than the time, the only difference is i ate the most for my breakfast and least for my dinner!
compared to a normal person's life, i realised how terrible i am.

DUMMY HEAD IS FOREVER BETTER THAN STUPID HEAD
-
catch me as i fall
say you're here and it's all over now
speaking to the atmosphere
noone's here and i fall into myself
this truth drives me into madness
i know i can stop the pain if i will it all away

dun turn away
dun give in to the pain
dun try to hide
though they're screaming your name
dun close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
dun turn out the light
never sleep never die

i'm frightened by what i see
but somehow i know that there's much more to come
immobilized by my fear
and soon to be blinded by tears
i can stop the pain if i will it all away
-
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
cos your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds wun seem to heal
this pain is just too real
theres just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now i'm bound by the life you've left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
-
once in a while
you are in my mind
i think about the days that we had
and i dream that these would all come back to me
if only you knew every moment in time
nothing goes on in my heart
just like your memories
how i want here to be with you
once more

you will always gonna be the one
and you should know
how i wish i could have never let you go
come into my life again
oh, don't say no
you will always gonna be the one in my life
so true, i believe i can never find
somebody like you
my first love

once in awhile
your are in my dreams
i can feel the your warm embrace
and i pray that it will all come back to me
if only you knew every moment in time
nothing goes on in my heart
just like your memories
and how i want here to be with you
once more

you will always be inside my heart
and you should know
how i wish i could have never let you go
come into my life again
please don't say no
now and forever you are still the one
in my heart
so true, i believe i could never find
somebody like you
my first love

8:27 PM