3 MORE DAYS TO EOY

My blog gonna be full soon, creating another new one but not going to change the url. To save the hassle of everybody relinking. How thoughtful~
(I couldn't think of new url too)
Btw, MEE POK! Tell me your url asap, I'm dying to taggggg! xD

Gonna prepare to go for cip soon. Meeting qi 8.30 at aljunied. Our class only left us and yilin. Should have gone to the first time with classmates. I bet it's gonna be more fun but we missed it due to having breakfast at mac.

And probably going to study later on. The only subject I'm worrying about is my poa. =.=

MORE LATERS~

i dont want to waste my time quarreling la. like i said, spoils my mood and ages fast. so peacepeacepeace.
i'll just shut up.

i'm keeping,
myself-to-myself:)

I DIE DIE MUST RETURN TO CHURCH AFTER EXAMS! =D
7:01 AM

离开是想要被挽留

School was a breeze. Time flies~ Slept for a long time so maybe that's why.
Cip tomorrow, so don't feel like going but we skipped twice already and Mr Koh asks us to go this time.
Either tomorrow or sunday going airport to study?
Phone almost got confiscated by miss choong again but she was speechless when I said her lesson was already over.
Oh and yesterday's singspiration was great! Motivated me? Probably returning back to church after exams. Shall see about it. Cos that's how it changed my life and made me stronger. :)
And I so got electrocuted today! Omg.



把手放了我也许会比较快乐
我也许会换个情人
我也许不会再撑
真的够了
能不能让雨别再下了
能不能让心别再疼了
能不能不要开灯
我们的爱跟着你写的剧本
出现了越来越多的角色
我是你什么人如果不是情人
是不是不要再浪费我的人生
你比我更清楚
你对我多好多温柔多认真
不构成爱我的资格
除非你只看着我想着我只有我
爱本来就该独一无二
为你伤心多一点少一点
流下的眼泪都一样不值得
世界上那么多人
只有我一个人能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了

记得要忘记
忘记经过我的你
毕竟只是很偶然的那种相遇
不会不容易
我有一辈子足够用来忘记


守护天使
4:08 PM

shouldn't
alot of shouldn'ts
cos it can never get back the same

After school studied but ended up sleeping in class and listening to mp3, whereby I came across that poem.
Nothing much. Gonna take a nap.
Boring day~

i feel my heart and wish that it was dead.
those stares mean the last.
7:25 PM

Almost got suspended again zzz but fortunately names were not taken down. I guess there wouldn't be anymore suspension anyway. Suspension is stupid la? Waste of time.
Chem test was alright? Pass please pass! Geog test only got half a mark? lol. Fraction over fraction. Wahahahas.
Both bastards were so lame today please. I ain't going to believe your silly joke alright? Don't target me as your joke. And stop smsing me when I'm just right infront of you guys.
Same time, same messages. How lame.
Yup and everything was fine. Great:)
Disturbed qi again! Her arm is always full of my new masterpiece everyday. Tomorrow is my doom day. xD
After school ba chor mee pok-ed with Darry. I still prefer the market one opposite our school. And the uncle so friendlyyy! =D
Took a nap and studied SS. One of my worst subjects. Tomorrow studying with qi after school. Probably in class? Aww couldn't find a better place. Mac definately won't work, there's how I failed my mye by playing there or going to people's house or playground to slackkkkk. What a failure.
10:49 PM

i am sure i wasn't thinking too much.
and thats it.


Just finished my tution and probably too tired so don't feel like studying. I took a 15 minutes nap just before tuition. Man, my teacher is another violent woman. I was merely shaking my legs while tuitioning and she went to step on it. =.=
But I would say tuitioning with her is fun cos we always have alot to talk! Redundant topics, stupid questions and stupid answers.
Tuition is fun? Sometimes.., yea.

I don't want to come home immediately after school cos I would be stuck infront of the comp as I do not have self-limitation so I gonna study before coming back. No msn online until after exams.

I will put all my time on mugging now, and not thinking.
:)
7:52 PM

Had a huge quarrel this morning. The first time I'm being treated so rude la? Gave myself some time to cool down, then think again, it's stupid. Shan't talk about it anymore. I must stay happy no matter what:)
And I guess everything was fine now.

Went for pc lesson again during assembly. 3 consecutive weeks when I'm not supposed to, rather pc than silent reading. Wongcc didn't even realised that we came too often la? Got sabo by some people to answer questions when I was not in the mood, so not in the mood.
Lessons was downright boring! Slept for 2 periods of chem, test was postponed to tomorrow. I do love chem la, but no idea why keep failing. =x
Self-revise last period of maths instead of listening to wongcc. Easy sums let him teach until so complicated. He's such a pro. x)
Lunched after school and on the way to bus-stop sort of playing hide-and-seek? Ahahahs, childish idiots running about. Honey girl squatted and hid behind a bush, LMAO!!
As usual in bus, I took the middle of the back row seat and girls was each sitting at the side of the normal seat nearest to the back row. Not much luck everyday to get those seats. But we got it yesterday and today.
Gonna prepare for tuition and muggggg!
My eye still hurt la x(
5:27 PM

I'm so scared of friskbee now. Played friskbee in the rain today and one friskbee came flying here and hit my ear. My stud came off and bled. Went to wash up and stopped playing. Supposed to assemble after PE but I want to get changed so we went back to class and when the girls were back, they said Mr Koh wanted to see us, so we went to find him.
Thinking that he would scold us but he smiled and wished us all the best as it was our last PE lesson and he wouldn't be teaching us anymore next year.
Man, he rocks.

Boring lessons today. Kept disturbing qi to chat with me. Tired, and my eye still hurt. I shall stop rubbing cos it's getting smaller and smaller!
Gonna take a nap soon then study for chem test tomorrow.
4:46 PM

Just reached home not long ago. Went out to get some gift, but didn't managed to find something which I like so went home to get changed and went Tampines instead.
And pampered myself with gift too. ^^






























Specially taken for Madeleine aka bangalalala for mentioning me in your blog.
(although you said i'm childish =x) but still ^^v !
Sorry la, eyes want close don't want close like that. I look weird.
That camera took so long to capture!
8:14 PM

retake of my life
8:31 AM

My phone speaker revived today the moment I reached home and switch it on to transfer everything to another phone.
So no repairment needed, save the hassle of transfering all the photos and messages :)

Today was rather quiet in class. There was conflict between qi and some guys? Aiya friends friends. I don't feel good too. It's fun to LOL in class altogether. Peacepeacepeacepeacepeace. So was like, only I laughed with qi today. I drew all the zodiacs on her hand with black and green markers. Yup and Miss Johnson questioned her hand too. It's abstract art. x)
Qikeep looking at what I was smsing today. I know she was looking so I wrote "Haha what you looking at?" HA HA HA.
iguessthepresentisbetter
4:03 PM

My phone speaker died on me today when I wanted to listen to mp3 during maths lesson in class. Life is so boring without music. Gonna send it to repair asap, probably during the weekend.
Couldn't find my mp3 player usb cable so no charging and transfering of songs. Tomorrow on the way to school would be damn boring. Sigh~
Yesterday slept for a long long time and tonight gonna start mugging:)

convince me
but the more i think, the more i'm fading
6:10 PM

I'm not feeling good.
I'm sorry
11:03 PM

It's good to clarify everything. I understand better now. Who says it's useless to say anything now. My ears are open and willing to listen to whatever explanation. The problem lies when you just kept everything from me. Honesty is always the best. I won't come up with all those assumptions senselessly. It's clearly understood even for outsiders so what more can I say. Peace. Zzz
Dragging on would only cause more hurts. Now it's done, I got to move on and settle another matter which I always thought it would be naturally solved after the previous one.

Sorry qi for dragging you in into these matters. Didn't expect things to turn out so complicated. As for another, qi said she did not want to get involved in it. I understand that it's hard for her as well. Sorry girl, I promise I won't drag on for too long and I hope that this matter wouldn't affect out friendship in anyway. I'll make things clear asap.
Simple as it is, don't love me. And I ain't going to be your angel.

After school I went home myself first and qi gave me a letter, a condolences letter. It brings tears to my eyes. I know I shouldn't cry so easily, I gotta be strong. I understand that sometimes my moodswing would affect those around me, I'm sorry about it.
I always tell the others to be happy happy so I must be really happy happy in the first place. For people who cannot read my mind would say I'm strong and take things easy. Yea I laughed alot today, I tell jokes to make people laugh as well as laughing at my own jokes. There's just something more than these laughters. But really, seeing people around me happy, makes me feel happy too. Not asking for too much, just smile.
And from now on, I'll be a happy girl! :)
3:30 PM

Today didn't had the friskbee game, just the practice. Before that we played police and thief? lol. FUN. =D
Lessons was boring today. Slept for 2 and a half periods. Maths, lit and chinese after I finished my compo.
Tired la.
After school went plaza sing and watched little man!!! xDD
Thanks Jason aka bpb aka old hag for smuggling me in. =D
That show was damn funny la, lmao.

leave things as it is now.
:)
8:07 PM

Today went out to study with qi. It's like once in a blue moon I would go out on sundays and moreover, I asked her out :)
Took neoprints! Then went mac to study. Did only like 2 questions of maths? Probably less than that. And got to know alot of things. Speechless la?
Went Seoul garden for dinner. Say me fat, I'll eat fatter! Hmp! But I just had a little and was full like hell and the cost for the both of us was 50+. I denfinately can cook better than her. Wahahahas.
Went to shop around then on the way home was conferencing with yiren aka one-man and yongsong. Stupid disiaos~ :$
And thanks for the cheers:)











































































Proved that I'm studying and she's not! HAHA




























im tired, really tired.
of all the lies.
im not a toy.
11:59 PM

Many people told me many things. Suprisingly, all are mentioned the same. Hmm~
Speechless.

Supposed to mug today but no mood to do so. Don't think don't think. =D
Finally got the appetite to eat these few days.

I wanna watch little mannnnnnn!
6:42 PM

Damn cold day, keep sneezing non-stop in class.
After school went Tampines to meet cousin then decided to go Bugis. Went Seoul garden for lunch cum dinner.
And there was this nerd who wanted to befriend with cousin while eating. I turned around and laughed, he looked so gong la. LOL. No offence.
There was silence for a while as noone said anything so in the end I just said she's attached then he relented and walked away. =.=
Went shopping with cousin~ Had a great laugh today. Always enjoyed myself whenever with her la.
:)

Gonna start mugging soonnnn!
8:42 PM

Sooooooo tired laaa. Just woke up from my nap.
Morning late for school and got suspended. ZZZ
I was the only girl during the suspension with around 7 guys. Boring~ luckily there was marcus. HAHAHA. So went for the recess break with marcus and jerad (whatever the spelling). Knew some new friends today too =D
One good thing was I sat inside the dm room most of time helping Mr kee, enjoying the air-con instead of outside. So I actually looked through the names of the whole school last year.
Released early at 3.


Gonna straighten back my hair asap. Ivan says not nice. Hahs.
Mustn't be late tomorrow or another suspension. >.<
11:40 PM

Morning got caught for skirt.
Geog was damn relaxing la. Mrs Lim just kept on talking non-stop and me, samuel and karwai was laughing non-stop too as we disfigured alot of people faces in the school mag.
Today had 4 straight free periods after recess so we had a long recess today. Accompanied Jiawen, Elicia and Jingru to eat then decided to get some stuffs back to class.
Bought hamburger and it was the worst hamburger I ever eaten in my life so I just ate the bread.
For the first 2 periods, we sat in a group with samuel, karwai, bibek and kk while eating my hamburger.

CANDIDS





























stupid childish face again















I'm eating the worst hamburger in this world =S
















I wrote this on our class cleaniness cert. HA HA HA!




That 2 periods was fun until qi got angry with them for saying her so the group splitted and I slept for the next 2 periods.
Aww got up moodily, went for lunch with girls after dismissal and it got better.
5:24 PM

4 free periods today. Had quite alot of laughter. Karwai and samuel kept calling me ant >.< They said I've been laughing throughout the whole day and laughed too much. Last period of maths was kinda fun but was really dread towards the end. Karwai and samuel said something which makes me feel like bursting out loud into tears. I got totally moodless and the next thing I was lying on my table crying. Cried all the way until dismissal and I really hate to let people see the way I cry la. So embarassing! Qi comforted, said alot of things to me, I heard and I cried more. =.= But then think again, it do make sense. Then those bastard came to my front to apologise and they promised to tell me more jokes and make me laugh. =D
男人不该让女人流泪 remember! x)

After this cry, I felt alot better as though I had really cried everything out. Gradually getting over it and changing back to myself.
Whatever happens, happens. I just want to be happy.

Yesterday had a chat with mad cat over the same issue. Mad dog, supposingly. Ahhh different people have different point of view.
I can't do anything, neither could I change anything.
So like I've said. What happens, happens.


This Friday meeting cousin! xDD
4:22 PM

Tired tired~ Woke up this morning, intending to sleep back 5 mins but ended up 1 hour plus. Still early though.
Friskbee for PE and I think it's more fun than softball. Team-mates as well as opponents were from other class but they were really nice people. Cooperative + enthu team-mates and opponents who always missed. LOL. No evil. Quoted from *someone. HA HA. It's difficult to score for friskbee but at least we enjoyed the fun. In the end, both teams got zero. =.=
Chinese was boring as usual, talk or laugh also get scoldings. And she would threaten us with the promises we promised her whenever we did not pay attention. Didn't she knows that promises can be broken? Ohwell..
Last of all, to end this quick, I'm damn tired! Could barely open my eyes on my way home. And I'm going to take a nap, soon. Gonna stay tune for the new tv prog tonight.

22 more days to EOY. Omg~

imlosinghope

-
I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove
If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly
I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you
At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain
Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work
What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me
I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby
We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care
Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess
4:21 PM

(NB ridaz)
Ohh I want to let you know
That I'll always love you baby

(Angie)
Sometimes I think about
Everything that we've been through
And I pray that you would just open your eyes
(NB Ridaz)I love you (I love you baby, I love you to girl) I need you (I need you too)
So please don't throw our love away (forgive me girl, Don’t throw our love away)

(Nb ridaz)
Since the day you and I snuck away to be alone
I knew from that night something special went on
It must have been the first kiss
You told me that nobody else in the world made you feel this
I felt the same way too but nothing stays the same
I'm sorry for the tears I'm sorry for the pain
You were the one that always made things right
I promise you this though you got a friend for life
Maybe one day we can try it again
And maybe things can be a little different
So lets jus kiss and say goodbye
Cuz I really cant stand the pain of seeing you cry

(Angie)
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

(NB ridaz)
All that's mine is yours that's what I said
Treat you with love and respect in everyway
You wanted I gave it need me I was there
Now you treat me like if I'm not here
I love you and I need you don't want to let go
If you want somebody else please let me know
Can't take it no more I feel I'm dying inside
Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?
I know I'm not perfect but I truly cared
So when you wake up one morning and I'm not there
Jus remember I loved you it will never be the same
Gave you everything and you threw it all away

(NB ridaz)
I gave you my good and my bad
My heart and my soul,
My trust my money my time,
What more could you ask for in a man
Even when times were hard I held out my arms and held you
Even accepted you though whatever weather
But now I'm feelin we're at the end of the road
Whatever we had now I got to let go
Nights like this I wish raindrops would fall
To cover my tears
Wishing I could replace all those wasted years
Of loving someone who couldn't love me back
And now again I got to start from scratch
But I know I've given you my everything
7:47 PM

Gastric painnnn! x(
>.<

Well, I see alot of people concerning for me. Such as people whom I thought they would never care? How sweet. *Touched. Thanks alot mans!
Love you people! xD

Yesterday couldn't sleep. Yea been thinking alot until I finally fell asleep then don't know which bastard came into my room and woke me up with that tiny winy bit of noise, like I just woke up from nightmare. =.=
I tried to sleep back but ended up online.
Chats, smses and 我叫金三顺 till 8 plus then went back to sleep till 3pm.
Looks like I gonna have a hard time sleeping tonight.

Dread. Holidays sure end fast. I wish I had more time, to at least heal. Tomorrow gonna start disiaoing and many things happened which I got to tell my friends about. First 2 periods of PE tomorrow is the best time to shoot all these out. Other than these, still dread.

Still pretty amazed.
Reasons to and not but one reason beats all.
iwonderhowlongicanhangontoo
4:20 PM

I knew this day would come, just a matter of time.
Everything ended.
No more tears and I will move on with a smile.
6:56 PM

Sorry all for being so 不懂事
Thought for the whole night so didn't slept well. Face it, girl! I'm brave. =X
No MIA.

Thanks to BPB aka dumbX100 for his time and advices.
It certainly feels great to pour out my heart's sorrows.

放弃一切就会成为回忆
坚持一切就会成为未来

I'm so amazed, and confused.



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telllmewhatodo
2:35 PM

SHALL MIA UNTIL I SORT OUT MY FEELINGS.


uoyssimi
10:09 PM

Like how stupid la, I knew those conflicts ain't just going to end like this and I actually got the whole matter worse. =X
I leave all to fate.
1:38 PM

Meeting time with cousin was short but still had a great laughter. Laughed till peng. I was late for 30 minutes plus. =.= Sorry laopo~
Intended to go her house and fetch her but she has school in the morning so ended up she came simei to find me.
My heels is hurting my feet like hell la, couldn't walk without looking like a crippled. Had lunch at Kobayashi then she came my house awhile. Then I sent her down to take cab home. She has to go out with family in the evening.
Yesterday finished watching 微笑Pasta episode 8. So nice lur, getting more and more exciting! I'm waiting for the next episode which would only be uploaded next week. T.T
Currently watching 我叫金三顺 episode 6 only.
TIRED!
5:14 PM

Woke up early in the morning to have tuition. So tired la. But not sleeping anymore, meeting cousin in 2 hours time. xD
Yay, Bugis. All-time favourite place whenever with her :)
Not catching any movie as time is tight but still gonna have a great time~
More later.
*shoooo
11:18 AM

Woke up from nap, had dinner and now I'm waiting for my ice lemon tea! x)
微笑Pasta episode 8 are finally uploaded! Watching it now and I hope the rest of the episodes could be uploaded soooon. Trying to watch finished all within this holiday.
Meanwhile waiting for other episodes in the past few days, I have been watching 我叫金三顺
Watched it on tv as well as online. Funny funny~ I prefer the chinese version on tv. But due to sleep, I missed quite alot of episodes on tv so have to watch it online - korean version but have subtitle.
Off to watch tv now, the 9pm show, 我叫金三顺 on tv then sleep. Tired. =X
Dying of thirst!
9:13 PM

The blogger banner did not disappeared but right at the below. I don't know what I did and it ended up. Lmao.

TIRED. Yesterday napped till midnight, woke up to have my dinner but really no appetite so just had a little then went down to buy drink. Watched tv but no shows, boring lur~ so went to sleep until this morning.
I seemed to have adopted this lifestyle during holidays. Meeting cousin soooooon! x)
Saturday? Or maybe tomorrow. I'll drag her along to a movie again. =D

Falling back to sleep soon.
Nothing to do = Sleep
ZZZ
7:52 AM

男人不该让女人流泪

I spent my whole day doing up my blogskin plus yesterday searching for all the resources. Have not eaten anything since I woke up this morning, feeling kinda faint huh. Okay, at least I was satisfied with the result. Colourful theme~ But problem with the blogger thingy on top, so now I seek everyone's aid on how to make that disappear :)

I love my blog's song, it don't sound awful lur. =X Don't know how to appreciate, you moron bastard.

My eyes are swollen since yesterday dreadful night x(

onelastry
5:05 PM

该爱就爱
该恨的就恨

不要说你爱我你想我
如果你的心里没有这么做
只是勉强的敷衍我

我会好好过 等你再爱我
总有个角落 会让你想起我
我会好好过 等你再爱我
向右或向左 都有我站在这里守候

还不够被爱





haseverythingended?
8:40 AM

LOL. How funny. I wasn't MIA la but hibernating. I slept for a long long time today, I did not off my phone but restricted all calls. So as to prevent myself from being woken up by phone calls. Wasn't online because I wasn't in the mood. But anyway, thanks to everyone's concern who thought I MIA. Lol. All friends, sorry for the worries too. :)
Though I had a long sleep but still somehow very tired. Early night, people.
:)
10:38 PM

Superb tireddd today aww~
I gonna sleep for as long as I like.












becauseidontfeellovedandcherishedasinthepast
11:34 PM