Meadow Sweet

Sunday, February 12, 2006

i thought of lying too but i guess it would be much better for me to say out the truth or else noone would understand.
who understands me anyway.
and i felt so stupid having to cry over this whole thingy.
so im meant to be kept in the dark forever if i never found out myself.
so im just that type whom people can easily lied to as if i was a nobody and a sorry to get over it.
just taking me for granted.
why do lies even exist in this world.
people lied to me when i dun.
in the end, the one who did all the cryings, the one who suffered the most pain, is still me.
i dun even understand myself.
ignorant is a bliss, so true.
but somehow i'll always get to know the truth eventually.
thats when i found out people are keeping me in the dark.
may this day when i re-received christ once again, start my life afresh.
i wants to forget about everything.

chc is NOT full of hypocrites.
i love the pastor's preaching, its so motivative.
and perhaps i should go chruch more often.
received christ for years yet dint really go church.
in the same way, going church makes me forget most of my unhappy things.
even if i cried, i know i would be crying for God.

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